"Don't get discouraged..." yet another email with the parent chose a 2 parent home...but don't get discouraged. I think this makes like 12 or 13 no's, so please tell me how one shouldn't get discouraged. I have now been in the system longer than anyone else on the list and they have gone through that list at least twice. What is really turning these people off.....is it how I look. Fat single person doesn't sound like a good match? I'm so frustrated currently and don't really know how not to get discouraged. I got an email yesterday saying they had been talking to this mother about me and she wanted to see my profile...but in reality she didn't really want a 'single' person. I sometimes wish they would just tell me afterwards....you know btw we showed your profile, but they weren't interested. The idea that it might get chosen and the wait till I find out as usual it didn't is excruciating and long. No matter how hard I try to not think about it- my brain starts planning, especially when it is a baby that's due very quickly.
I would be a very good mom. I wish there were a way to show this to the birth moms. Sadly I don't know how much more of this I can endure. They say there are 5 more birth moms/families to be matched in the system---but there are 9 waiting families....so 5 more no's on the way in a short amount of time. I don't know.
Sorry it's a depressing blog post...but I'm very sad about this and I'm just not sure how to not be discouraged. It probably doesn't help that I'm sick currently and therefore it's extra sucky. Please keep me in your prayers that the right thing will come along.
Thanks for everyone's support.
