Today I turn another year older. BOO. I don't mind getting older. I just wish that life was going a little better. I'm still on the adoption list, but as usual nothing has happened with it. I redid my profile book in hopes that maybe that would help. It's supposed to be shown again this week, but I'm not going to get my hopes up. Next year on this day, I will be stopping this process. I don't really want to wait another year to get a child already, I'm so torn between being to old and so badly wanting to be a mother.
Over the weekend I held a baby shower for my friend whom I love dearly, but there was a little jealousy in the back of my mind. Or I guess envy. I'm very excited for her and her husband. It would be awesome if I also got a baby this spring and then they could grow up together. :-)
Meh enough ranting, just thought I'd update this. I'm still waiting.....
