Still Waiting....

My household feels empty now after having two kids for over four months.   I've decided I am a better person with kids.  I get up, I dont' sleep all the time and I keep the house somewhat cleaner.   I also feel less alone.  I feel like I have purpose.  
I've had several calls for teenagers which I can't take and one call for a part of a large group of kids - but they never called me back.  I know there are some that need placed, but I'm still waiting.  I don't feel like my social worker is doing the best she can.  She tells me one thing but doesn't follow through or is telling me wrong.   By now she should have had my adoption paperwork/studies done, but she hasn't done anything on them.    She says she's trying to get some kids in my house but I don't believe she's really following through...I'm still waiting on the reimbursement for the first week of childcare.   (I'll never see that.)
So in the meantime, I just keep waiting and try to stay calm and work on the things I need to do at school.   It's not like I have nothing going on between the show at school and the show at church.  :-)

An Empty House

Ok it's not completely empty.  I am still there as well as my pets, but as for kids all is quiet.   The kids I had left last Wednesday.   It was not as bad as I anticipated.  I had a nice conversation with the family and that helped alot.   I never was sad they were going home.  I miss them, but always knew they would be going home.   My family is more upset than I am.   I do miss them and their keeping me busy.  However my spring play is starting so I am goign to keep busy. I just hope I get more kids and soon.
They called today and I was excited, but it turned out to be for a 15 or 16 year old and I am not licensed for teens nor do I want them or have the space for them.  I can't believe they even called over that.  I have everyone thinking positive with me that the next one will be a baby and one I can keep.  :-)