I'm not sure which will in the end be the hardest, saying goodbye to the kids or this wait of not having any information. The social workers have not give me any information. I don't know when or how they are leaving or to whom. I think it's totally unfair to me and also to the kids. I have things I need to pack for them and they need to know it's happening before they leave or it will be the same as when they were removed from home. I don't want them to leave thinking I didn't want them so I want to be able to discuss it with them. This is frustrating and stressfull. I've asked for information but they haven't given me anything. I've chosen not to go to the court thing today since my opinion apparently doesn't matter and they have already made the decision to move the kids. I can see how people don't want to be foster parents. I told my social worker (whom isn't totally realiable) that I really want to move towards the adoption process.
The kids are adorable and I am going to miss them. Boy has really grown up in the past 4 1/2 months. He's no longer the blank wall I used to try to talk to . He uses complete sentences, has full conversations and recalls information very well. He is quite polite and is a sponge for information. Girl has started running, talks all the time, and is now in the copy everything you say phase. She to is a sponge for information. She loves being tickled and dancing. They are good kids and I hope whereever they go the people taking care of them know how special the kids are. They are smart and have so much potential.
I will miss them.
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