Unwelcome News

One of my biggest complaints about the foster care system is the lack of communication.   They are horrible communicators in many aspects, but the one that always bothers me the most is I never know what happens to the kids after they leave my house.  It would be nice to have an update on them.
Today was different.  Through emails of trying to figure out why the daycare didn't get paid, I was told the boys have already been moved from the home I took them to.   This saddens me so much.  while there were many problems they were good kids- just to much for me to handle alone.   I know there isn't anything I can do and I made the right decision, but it still very much weighs on my heart.   I hope they find a place that can keep them or they are removed from the system soon.   This is a different painful hurt then saying goodbye to the kids - I wonder if I could have done more, could have kept them----I did have them for 7 months.  If they don't have visitations they do really well.  It's sad the other family didn't give it some time, but hopefully they will find the right placement.   for now I'm going to be sad and think of them.

Enjoy the balloon pics from Colorado Springs yesterday.