Moving Forward

Well I got the call.  I start my training in a week.  It's at my house and will actually finish the week I finish my college courses.   Nice timing.   I'm excited but at the same time nervous as I'm not sure I can get my house clean.  I need to rent a storage shed to get a lot of it out.   With the show I'm in I'm just not sure when.  This weekend I get to go to KC with friends and their 3 little boys.  We are going to Worlds of Fun and Oceans of fun.  I hope it gets warm enough for Oceans of fun and stays cool enough for Worlds of fun.  I'm waiting for them now.    They have a 3,4, 5 years old boys.  It should be an interesting weekend.   3 adults, 3 kids, one hotel room.  :-)   Well they should arrive any minute so I guess I should go.  

Glimmer of Movement

I finally emailed the lady who had first emailed me after I started this process.   She finally emailed back and said they had finally just two days ago gotten enough references (found out last night one friend still hasnt' sent it).   So we started discussing MAPP classes - they are a required 10 week class.  The only one they had started June 15 in a town that's about an hour away....so I told her I had rehearsals and wasn't able to do evenings.   Now she's trying to get it to where I can do it with a smaller group/one on one.    AND it's only 7 weeks.

Other glimmer - my coworker talked with the guy who currently has a little foster girl at his house.  He did ask questions about who I was working with and said he'd like to talk to me.   :-))))   so maybe this can happen faster and quicker than I ever thought.   I dont' know.   The lady currently doing my information said well "there aren't really any kids 0-2, they are all 8 and above"  I told her I know...but for now that's really the age I want.   And honestly....I want that little girl.   So be thinking about a speedy and happy process.  I never see this guy so hopefully he will come talk to me when he's at my work place.  :-)  And hopefully not to bring bearer of bad news.  

The First of Many to come....

Well I officially got my first..."you're doing what" response from my closest friend no less.   She gave me a look that said...."Are you totally freakin' crazy"   Not very encouraging when it come from a friend...and one who is supposed to fill out a reference for me.   Which she says she didn't get.   arg.    Oh well I might as well get used to it.     However I know this is the right decision.  This weekend I'm at a wedding of a friend where I totally had a breakdown....mostly because of a photography issue (I thought I was a photographer...long story and not really of value here)  and partly because I think it hit me this friend was getting married, before I could even get a date.........though I love her to death and now I feel like the worst friend in the world for having the breakdown...it was during pictures.   I spent a lot of the time playing with the little kids.  I really want one so I know my decision is right

An Introduction

Hello Blog readers.  If you have come across my blog, I'm glad you've stopped to read.   This blog is basically about my path to a family.   A little background information.  I turned 33 in February of this year and I desperately want kids.  However I am single and have been for...well....33yrs.  For whatever reason, God has not brought a love to me and although I always thought I'd be the married woman with children, I am not.   However I do want kids and I want them before I turn really really old.  :-)    I have been looking at adoption/fostering for the past couple of years almost daily and have thought about it prior to that.   Sadly flat out adopting an infant is way to expensive....I'm only a high school theatre teacher - not a millionaire.   AFter talking with a couple people in town and trying donor sperm and not getting pregnant, I finally made the active decision to fill out the application to foster to adopt.  I do want a baby very badly and hope that something works out.  I know there are older kids in need of a home and down the road I would be very happy to foster/adopt them, but I want to raise a kid also.  So I'm going to blog about trying to get to my family.  I live alone in my own house with a 3yr old dog, a 1 year old cat, and a 2yr old rescued goldfish.  So my first official step was to file an application.  I filed with TFI family services.  They sent out 5 reference forms and I know some of them have been sent in.  Hopefully all have with good remarks and I'm waiting to hear from them that my application was accepted and to move on to the next step.  I've inquired about a specific baby I know about in town who is 5 or 6 months old.  They couldn't give me any information, but a coworker is going to talk to her foster dad.....we will see if she does.  I feel a little wierd about asking.   I am hoping she might be a possibility as I've been wondering about her for about 6 months.   However there is a lot of stuff I have to do to be able to foster or adopt.  First step---must be accepted by TFI.  I hope this process goes quickly and smoothly.  So wish me luck...check back and see how it goes!