Sometimes I think this fostering idea is the biggest mistake of my life. I don't seem to have any control over my own life anymore and worse sometimes I feel like I lose control of myself. After 2 1/2 weeks things have not improved much with the little girl I have. Her listening skills and ability to follow any instructions hasn't improved at all and my ability to handle it seems to be declining. If she would just follow simple instructions life would be so much better. I probably need to have them moved to another home, but then I feel bad for them and I feel like a complete failure. There are such worse things she could be doing. The little boy is a challenge at times, but overall is not to bad.
Today I saw into the system a little more when attending a case plan. This case seems a little out of the ordinary. The sad thing I figured out from the meeting is that more than likely the kids will be split up. I will be surprised if they are in my care much longer anyway. I really need to figure out how I feel fostering and if it is something I want to continue. I keep going back and forth in my thought pattern. Here are a couple of pictures from the 4th. They don't show faces so I figure it can't hurt anything.
All worn out B can't even stay awake at fireworks. (we weren't' that far from them either)
G watching fireworks (this was probably the only second she was sitting)
Pretty fireworks
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